Hello I've been dealing with sexual issues since I first became gay, when I was a teen when I hooked up with oral I would not talk the person again. I lost my vg top and bottom at 19, but went into a relationship where I was the bottom only for a very big well endowed guy for a year and a half. After that I was confused and had a hard time finding myself, because when I topped I couldn't last for longer than 2 mins sometimes less and didn't want to bottom because of my first relationship. Throughout my 20's I abused myself sexually with lots of hook ups, hate to say it but at this current moment been with over 300 guys and not even sure if that is accurate. For a while I thought I had a sex addiction, but felt it was the norm in gay society. I've cheated in all my relationships and most of my relationships we have 3somes or 4 somes that sometimes end badly. At this current moment I have a loving partner who is amazing and verse, but I find myself s...